You don’t know me. And if you did, you wouldn’t want to. Because I’m not someone people like. I’m the one they talk about once I’m away. I’m the bad example, the pathetic one. The one that everybody just leaves behind. That’s all the voice inside my head keeps telling me. And that voice makes it so easy to believe. Weiterlesen
I said “no” when everything inside me screamed “yes”. And I lost you because I followed reason. I didn’t trust you. Fear got the better of me. And so I let you walk away.
Six years later and I’m still stuck on that moment. So much it has begun to haunt my dreams. All the stories I make up – they are about you. It’s always you.
Though I never talk about you and haven’t heard from you since that day – you are in my mind every day. Every night and every time I forget to catch myself.
Six years before I began to mention your name again. And still – what is there to talk about? There is nothing I can do except move on. That’s what I’m telling myself every single day.
I know that it’s my own fault that this memory still haunts me. It destroyed everything. And believe me, I tried. But it’s you – still you – always you. Every time.
So, can I really go back? After all this time and all the efforts I made to get past you? Those questions are irrelevant.
The truth is I barley manage to live without you. There is nothing left for me to try but this. Because for me it is and has always been you.
I promised you once that I will never forget. And than once I almost did. So I wrote it down and it became the only story I’ve ever been able to finish. The only song I ever dared to sing in front of an audience. Once. So after all this time it’s still all about you. Weiterlesen
I like you. I really do – probably a whole lot more than I should. Even if you are mean, lash out at me or ignore me. It drives me crazy if you are not here. And then I’ll always start to make stupid vows to myself about all the things I want to say to you. But then I never do say them. Weiterlesen
Be brave and maybe a little more bold.
Just don’t pretend and ask a lot of questions or you’ll never know the answers.
And really don’t forget: Just be yourself. Weiterlesen
…are not here.
If you were, the world would be a different one.
You don’t even know
If you did, there’d be no reason for so many things
You are not here
That’s the only thing certain.
And maybe my only excuse
There is a song in my heart
A tune and it’s got your name
And it plays whenever I dare to dream
There is a poem in my soul
About all those things I can’t tell you
I repeat them slowly in my head
Everytime the song starts