Change is scary, it really is. It’s not so much about changing your life, but the little things that keep us from growing – or in my case, healing. It’s about realizing that your mind is a liar sometimes. That some of the things we clung to our whole life are complete and utter bullshit. For me one of those things is the believe that something is fundamentally wrong with me. That, as a result from this wrongness I am destined to fail. What I didn’t realize is that I was the one setting myself up for failure before even trying. Weiterlesen
Everyone has someone they will never truly let go. That one person that changed everything. The one you’ll always have feelings for. Mine is called Adam. And this is for him. Weiterlesen
I’m gonna miss the stories I made up about you in my head. They were good and they were promising. It’s a pity they were just fiction after all. Maybe if I write them down from now on and create a story around it, they will not be lost after all.
Fiction after all is the safest place to be. No one can hurt me inside my head. No one can crush the happy endings with reality. I will always miss you. Some part of me – small as it may be – will always stay with you. But the rest from now on will be fiction.
There’s a reason why they call me lunatic after all.
The worst part about fiction is the fact that we want – so badly – to believe it holds truth. That maybe, possibly, happy endings do exist after all. But there are no happy endings. I know. Reality is always so much more complicated. Weiterlesen