Last week I read in a magazine about the benefits of being single. You know stuff like “You don’t have to deal with stupid nicknames or smelly breath in the morning”. And I was like: Oh my god, are you fucking serious? I think she was.
My first problem with this article was though: Why does every single constantly feel the need to justify the fact that they are not in a relationship? It’s like all those vegans trying to make life without meat, eggs, fish and milk sound worth living. I disagree but I don’t care what anyone does or doesn’t want to eat.
And I don’t care about being single either. I know exactly why I’m not in a relationship and why that probably isn’t going to chance any time soon. Sometimes I’m quite okay with those reasons and sometimes not so much. But in order to change my situation I’d have to make some changes in my life I’m not really ready to make right now.
So if people feel the need to pity me for being single they can do that. And if they envy my so-called freedom of not having to deal with a relationship they can suit themselves. Maybe I should over them the pieces of my broken heart then the might reconsider the envy.
Relationships aren’t just flowers and rainbows – nothing in life ever is. Being single can be hard and liberating depending on the day you ask me. But I’m rather alone then lonely with someone I don’t want.
So why is it that we always feel the need to explain ourselves to others? What does it ever really change? I am where I stand right now because of the choices I made. I’m shy, awkward and weird and most people can’t deal with that. And I don’t want to deal with most people anyway.
I’m not looking for any approval as long as I can look myself in the eyes in the mirror. It’s me that has to live with the choices I made and be happy with the changes. No one else. And that’s just the way I want it right now.